Never a clean break

i carry your heart with me  - by ee cummings

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in

my heart)i am never without it(anywhere

i go you go,my dear;and whatever is done

by only me is your doing,my darling)

i fear

no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want

no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)

and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant

and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud

and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows

higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)

and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart(i carry it in my heart)

    

One of my all time favourite poems. It carries so much emotion and truth in so little words.
Every time I read these words, it awakens within me emotions that I try to keep buried very deeply - and I am quite good at that - but this poem gets me, every time.
I might not breakdown and cry, but I do break on the inside, perhaps not a new break, perhaps the old cracks that just grow an inch, or surface again; but most definitely never a clean break.

                                                       

To never, never forget

Aaah, this is one of those quotes that make me feel stong, and sad and good and wanting all at the same time. How I wish i could say these words were my own:

"To love. To be loved. To never forget your own insignificance. To never get used to the unspeakable violence and the vulgar disaprity of the life around you. To seek joy in the saddest places. To persue beauty to its lair. To never simplify what is complicated or complicate what is simple. To respect strength, never power. Above all, to watch. To try and understand. To never look away. And never, never, to forget."

                                                                                         - Arundhati Ray


What wonderfull beautiful and true words, Arundhati.
I wish yo be your friend.

I need to live by this (more)...

Words of a very wise man, and extremely fitting for my current state of mind.

Your work is going to fill a huge part of your life, and the only way to be truly satisfied is to...love what you do, Remembering that I'll be dead soon is the most important tool I've ever encountered to help me make the big choices in life. Because almost everything - all the pride, all the fear of embarrassment or failure - these things just fall away in the face of death, leaving only what is truly important. Remembering that you are going to die is the best way I know to avoid the trap of thinking you have something to lose. You are already naked, There is no reason not to follow your heart. Your time is limited. Don't waste it living someone else's life.

                                                           - Steve Jobs

 I think we should all try to remember this more often. Don't sweat the little things.
Your daily work is not one of the little things though - in fact it is huge!
It takes up most of your day and your mind. A couple of things I would rather be doing and spending most my time on - cooking; animals; helping; designing; creating - even though I'm really not that good at creating, there are so many amazing things already created out there, but perhaps taking something and trying to better it? Using what has already been created and set free into the world, as a part of something new?

What a stoke of luck fo rme to stumble upon this quote, as I too a firm believer in that you should truly enjoy what you do, to actually achieve self fulfilment and be happy in your everyday life. Therefore I have no issues in quiting a job if I don't enjoy it (not because it's hard work, and times might be tough - but because it makes my soul unhappy).

So what am I then doing currently, being so bored that I have decided to blog whilst at work?
I should practise what I preach, I hear the little voices say. Yes this is true, but for now I think there is still somethings to be learned at my current job, from the people, myself as well as business.

Time is priceless

As I’m sitting at work, in my quite office, looking at the bare white walls, I feel something inside me slowly die.

But at the same time I feel inspired, as if these four walls can serve as my imaginary canvas.

And therefore I shall write.

I shall write and moan,

I shall write and rejoice,

I’ll repost pictures that make me laugh and cry.

I’ll spread literature and poem that touch me in anyway.

 

I’m just a girl in the world, searching for a fulfilling job, or some sense of fulfilment.
I have heartaches and heartbreaks, I get moody, and nostalgic.
I wish to be loved, and to live freely without stress – is this too much to ask?

(un)fortunately life does not always turn out the way one wants, but if it did, what would there be to inspire, teach and learn.

So this will be my space where I will jot down my thoughts and fears, sometimes anguish and tears.

Whilst I sit at a boring job, this is what I will do, I will share my thoughts with you.
Time is precious, time is priceless.

 “ Time is priceless, but it’s free.

    You can’t own it, you can use it.
    You can spend it. But you can’t keep it.
    Once you’ve lost it you can never get it back.”
                                                                                  -          Audrey Niffenegger